As most of you know my life has not been an easy one…I was born with a “Fragile X” which put me at a high functioning level of the autism spectrum…my daughter has it too. Needless to say that in the 70’s people knew nothing of autism or ADHD, and single mothers were not as socially accepted as they are today.
My Mom Was Only 16 Years Old
Well my mom was 16 years old when she became the single mother of a child with some serious challenges…ME. I wasn’t an easy kid to love, but she did the best she could. She was simply not equipped emotionally or financially to be a single mother to a child quite like me, but she didn’t give up!
I left my mother’s side and went out into the world alone at age 11 and quickly found that life as a street kid was harder than I could have imagined…but by the time I understood what I’d done, it was too late to fix it… It was hard and for many years I couldn’t see my part in any of it…all I could see was where she’d failed me…where my mother had fallen short of what I needed her to be. Now, raising my own child on the autism spectrum, and living life as a single mother who’s not equipped emotionally or financially to take on a child like little Cassiel, I can only see my mother through the eyes of forgiveness and LOVE. God has walked me through many of the same experiences of the woman I’d judged so harshly, and I’ve been humbled by it. He’s also come into relationship with my mother, and changed her heart as well.
Restoration of Broken Things
The Lord took two broken women who had nothing but judgement and anger toward one another, and reconciled us not only to Himself, but also to each other. Today I have the relationship with my Mom that I’ve always wanted. What was impossible for us, was NOT impossible for God. And today I want to THANK MY MOTHER FOR NEVER GIVING UP ON ME. I love you Mom, more than you could possibly imagine. HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY! Your sacrifice and love in these last years have helped me heal from the wounds of my childhood, and the difficulties I struggle with today with my little girl keep me reminded of how amazing you were and ARE.
Hang In There
I feel like there’s someone out there who thinks that there is no possible way that things could ever be good between them and their child, or them and their parent, and I’m here to tell you that THERE IS HOPE and that there is truly NOTHING BEYOND GOD’S POWER! Hang in there, and keep praying. God LOVES to take the shattered pieces of a life, and make a beautiful work of art with them. He is quite amazing at taking unfixable things, people and situations and BRINGING VICTORY like only He can.
Many blessings to all of you!
But especially My MOM. Love you Momma!!!
(this is the part where she says “I love you more.” And I reply “that’s not possible!”)